After a plateau

After a bit of a stall I'm back. It's taken me a while to get used to solid foods again but I think I'm now getting into a groove and realising that foods such as yoghurt do absolutely nothing for me in the fullness stakes as they just slide through...hence why people who have been banded call such foods sliders...DUH!!!

I'm really trying to stay away from foods that one fill me and working out what I want to eat and when I want to eat is tricky but I'm getting there. I've still not got enough saline in my band for 1/2 cup of food 3 times per day to be enough but hopefully that is where I will be eventually.

I'm now down 16.2kg (35.7lbs) which is a nice number but I look forward to it being more and finding I can wear more of my winter wardrobe!

I had a therapist appointment this morning, we've gone from fortnightly to monthly to now six weekly visits and she's helping me through all this, I can't imagine how hard this is without one. I still need to be taking my anti-depressants, I had a week of not taking them last week as I couldn't work out how to eat breakfast and I really need to take it on a full tummy first thing in the morning. I had a really really weepy weekend last week but am feeling more calm and balanced now.

Goal for the weekend....gym visit...I think I can...I think I can....I think I can!!!!

Woah!!!

I'm home and while it's been so fantastic staying with friends, being away from the noise of the city and everything, falling in love with their gorgeous little sausage dog puppies I'm happy to be home.

Of course as soon as I walked in the door I stripped off and jumped on the scales and get this, I am 4.2kg lighter than I was last Monday morning, that's just over 9lbs!!! I can now say I am 14.5kg or almost 32lbs down in the past 5 weeks. Ooh I may even have to add a little ticker to get all excited about too :-) I know it wont continue this quickly but it's so nice to feel better and know I have lost a good chunk already!

Onwards and upwards, actually it should be onwards and downwards in this case.

Recovery

It's finally done, after 4 months of waiting I am have been fitted with a lapband.

I'm so relieved, all went well, my four weeks of detox left my insides in good nick for surgery, so the procedure was clean cut and easy. I had amazing nurses and one by one my fears were allayed.

I was able to keep my medication private from my family

The gown fitted

I was allowed to wear my own knickers

I walked upstairs to the pre-op area (and they gave me a gown to wear on the back so I wasn't flashing my behind to the world)

I was wheeled into the surgery

I climbed off the bed and then climbed onto the operating table instead of doing a walrus-like impression wiggling from one to the other

The anesthetist was able to get an iv in

I easily came out of

Most importantly they were able to do everything through key hole and didn't need to open me up.

so now I'm just at that weird point where I'm working out what I can and can't eat, whether I'm hungry or I just think I am. I get the gurgling tummy that usually tells me I'm so hungry I should have eaten ages ago but it's only when it gets to a painful stage that I begin to question it and wonder why it's happening.

I know it's only the first week of recovery but I haven't been obsessing over food or even thinking about food, even though I've mostly just been home alone. Fingers crossed this will continue!

Can't belive it

Two more sleeps, only one more day of optifast left.
I'm so over the repetitive nature of my diet this past month, I find the fact that I have stuck to this a whole month quite incredible but the results have been incredible and I am down almost 10kgs and I feel so much better for it.
I can't imagine what I will feel like when I am down 50kgs, already I am feeling so much more awake, more energy, my working day is so much less exhausting. My weight gain last year really push my body's boundaries and I am happy to be starting to shave it off again.
I hope that I keep losing at a consistent rate because I really need to be fitting into some warmer clothes but I'm not buying any more, I'm adamant!

As well as surgery on Monday I'm also excited/nervous about this Dietbet starting next week, instigated by Mary at A Merry Life. I've never done anything like this so I thought it might be fun to jump on board and see what happens...trying new things and I'm not even banded yet...life is changing!

Six sleeps to go

I must emphasise that I know I will still need to work hard, this is not the magic pill I dreamed about when I was an early teen and I was being teased unmercilessly at school. I know it may seem like that with the way I'm counting down, but really I'm just excited, nervous, scared, relieved, just to mention the tip of the emotional iceberg.

I'm doing OK, most of my hungry moments can be fixed with a cup of decaffeinated green tea and to be honest those moments don't really arise that often, much to my surprise.

I feel better, clothes are looser and my scales tell me I am down 7.4kg, which isn't as much as I'd like but it's always nice to lose (weight). I dont really have much more to say I'm just coming in with an update and it's more of the same for the next 5 days then it's the big day!