Picking myself up

I have to say I have done a great job of recovering from yesterday.
I woke up to a messy reminder of yesterdays binge eating in my kitchen and on my coffee table.
I tried out one of the sleeping tablets last night and wow are they good, I had 8 whole hours of sleep I did not stir once, they are amazing, I feel better than I have in weeks this morning. I've already put a wash on, tidied up and just ordered a winter coat from Old Navy

Love it, the last time I bought a coat was at my highest weight and it looks slightly odd when I wear it these days so I'm excited to have something warm to wear when I get there.

So anyway back to moving on, I cleared away my debris and all reminders of yesterday, particularly last night and prepared my usual breakfast, 2 pieces of light rye toast, low fat cream cheese instead of butter, promite and a skinny latte, I also had a punnet of blueberries. Delicious, sated and ready for my day. I also took a duromine this morning to ensure I have a great day and food isn't buzzing around in my head.

This morning I've been emailing back and forth with my friend that Im seeing in San Fransisco (in 12 days woop) and I went through all the things I've been doing to get ready for the flight, even down to getting a low dosage of aspirin and started taking it as a precaution. She knows I don't want to come back heavier and I've always talked about all this junky food I want to try but it's been dawning on me that food is becoming less of a focus. Don't get me wrong I still want to eat fresh authentic Mexican food, I want to try some real San Franciscan sourdough and clam chowder and I want to know what a soft pretzel tastes like, try a Graham cracker and I want to try 1 smores. I'd like to bring back some trader joes almond butter because Shauna over at The Amazing Adventures of Dietgirl has raved about it, I'm curious about the low fat powdered peanut butter you can buy over there. However all that said I'm no longer looking forward to scarfing down peanut butter m & ms, hoovering butterfingers, burning myself on pop tarts, trying all the Ben and Jerry flavours and sampling an endless line of confectionary. So while initially I was so excited about the food I'm much more interested in shopping for clothes and shoes and make up, it's all so cheap over there and I intend to take full advantage of this. This of course all comes a very definite second to seeing friends, spending time with them, getting away from things at home and exploring a brand new city, these three things are the most important.

So as you can see yesterday is behind me, I no reason to think about it any more, it was what it was, a day filled with binge eating and today is back to how things have been for around 3 weeks, less focus on food, more focus on living!